Saruman...side story...

Saruman became saroman...because...he
Found his lover bedding another...

Saruman could be a great elven king...

But...recent thou...recently...into his crowning...
His lover betrayed him...

Saruman was not born into the kingdom...
But...initiated...from another world...another land....

When Saruman discovered his choosen...with
another man....
He was to destroy her....

In mercy of her. ...all magical beings
Gathered...and offered him....something...we can call a ring...

She dressed nicely and presented it for him...
For the life and safety of the fay woman
As loved by the magical kingdom....

This something could give him powers of a king...a elven king....

To ease this stranger. ....he accepted...

But...then...shortly after. ...

He left all principles...and went to war agaibts the magical world itself....
The kingdom....

And against all good and magical things....

He belived that good was bad and bad was good....

Because his fay choosen had the softests of hearts....

The war was not yet truly started....

Could this tinkerbell make him into Peter Pan....

An innocent good little boy....

The universe whispers...there is hope....

Oh...fays Will always belive in magic...in
The end....

What do you wants

Happiness....

or do you want respect?

choose....

and if you choose right......

you will have both....

i choose both

i choose wrong

and i got both indeed

it can happen

Every rule has a glitch......

Values

Some people grow values
Flaunt values

Some people hide values
others simply sell them

The soul is so mistical
But...without its values

The soul is nothing at all.....
it is like sold for pennies....

Soulles .....zombies.....

Some people grow strenght from suffering

Others will turn even more frail

and simply realize better what kind of people

is worth giving it all to


The self becoming utter most delicate in choosing

Everyone has something....

Everyone has something

not really for others

but mostly for themselfs

Everyone was made from the gutters of the earth

Don`t say you where made from god...from the heavens

That you are the spit image of the great and the greatest

It is pornstar ideology

DIgg myself pholosophies

And in the end

we are left with no friends riding a huge attitude....

they made the jump

In the end they evolutioned

They grew and they learned

And they forgot again and again
Everything that had just been learned

Remains with only the
Thought...or maybe rather
Just a simple wish

Listened by the stars....

Cause...in the end

Nothing was ever theirs

Nothing was under control

At least not under their strongest
Will....

Only the simple wish

Begged in a state of mercy...

But...yes...they evolved

Into the world's greatest clowns....

Funny....sad....entertainment

But mostly sad was the painted
Tears ....


Yes...they evolved

They evolved in two clowns.....

If that was a progress

Or a regress...who would to know

As long as they where together
In this love....

He seemed to smile
At least....painted or not

The nutsy became his
Forever trade....

some like it. ..like that

Some like it easy

Some like it hard

Some need rules
They need screams...pretend..to not enjoy
the rush

I love the smooth
The gentle lush

Some come to me
To get some filling
And I will say

Take what you need
From this lonely reeling

But...seldomly...can I give them
What they need...slow death
Of a bad woman's seed. ...

In an upside down place
It is hard to tell....

But...surely...maybe...
If they lost their sight

They would sence the trail
From that great well of what is...and what is not. ..
But...surely...even if they knew....they would
Choose the same....

It is vampire land....
And all I have is theeth....
To bite....a lover's flesh

That game
That little game....

I was out...before it began

I rather be without a leg

Then part of the swells dwells spells

I am no beauty

A trollup from the woods

How to make a trollup...
U mix every thing you got and
Put it in our pot

It could turn good
And it could turn bad

Maybe a little bit of both

Oh...that would be sad....

Just a rather tad

Just a rather tad

Being a child was truly something else

She went from her burning bedroom
to his morning bedroom

(that day, that day)

She just wanted to say "hello.....like that song....... 

All along stars watching....silence....

Love keeping a little girls heart beating ...in a soo chaotic world

She loved that strange little boy.....

Two worlds

There is two place
It is the valley and the kingdom of men

In the valley resides the gnomes
It is also a fairy kingdom
And a kingdom of all magical beings
in general

The valley and the kingdom of men
Are two different places....

But they are very close
and live in peace and harmony

Well mostly
The difference can be seen like
the kingdom of men has different
air texture

Comparable to when a human climbs a mountain
very high
Some can tolerate it quite well ...
Other can even die

Her oath

I will never again let any man

touch me

nomather

I will never again 

have like

affairs

of any sorts

My violet

my little violet

I love you just soo much

Eve and the appletree

Can you eat of this tree

asked he snake

I can eat of every tree of the garden

exept the tree in the center

The tree of life

The woman felt it was nice to eat of the tree 

She saw the delightfl fruit

ate more 

and gave to the man

Her eyes opened and

soon his opened to

They both looked at

each other

They realized they where naked

and they had commit sin

And he grabs...the senceless woman.....

He takes her....

As she is fragile...inlove...in heartaches...for the love of her life....

This time...he does not by force grab her will....

But....gently...call upon her.....

Slowly she responds.....but...she knows who him is.....the one...watching thru her windows....

Is his calls....with the intent to abuse her....and degrade her...even more....

She fragile accepts his approaches...and for first time...in long.....she calls him...with love....and lays into his embrace....

That is when he pushes her away...unto the floor....

- you are to much...you give o much...you creep me out...you creep everyone out....

Be silent...be more stoik....like me.....like everyone else.....

You talk to much

SILENCE

Continuesly he demands of her to be silent....

She makes the illusion....

like the great illusionist she is...

- says NO

screams NO

Cards are not in ur hand..... perpetrator..... 

I decide....i got magic powers also....see

It is over....

Deletes him from the imaginary contact book.....

But somehow...she knows...her game is over....

In this silence....she will die....

Stoikness in death in the life span of  sagittarius.....

Tree lovers...

They lay....like lovers ..holding each other in one same tree...

stories of two big branches....oh...ho magical life is....
We look at life...and at nature....he effect of casuality is all we sometimes see.....

But all life has its story....even each little rock at the sea shore...as its own little story....like that it once came from a star.....above in the heavens....

But....i did see the two huge branches....and i had hugged another tree of two branches....sometimes before....they had another story to tell.....their story...was much about him...how he lost her...once....and looked for her....even in the otherlands....he had to look long...cause the places she belonged to...he was not allowed to enter....

I prayed...and he seeked ...and he longed soo much...that the heavens...simply granted him ....with her agreement...to stay with her in a tree....the soul of a tree with two branches....he spent his time in the tree....with moment of joy....but also tears...he was sad...that only by the form of a tree could he have her....in a world where one could truly feel.....touch...and sence....with less influence of the illusive....
She consoles him caringly....in that tree.....

BUt this time...this other tree....seemed to have been captured....he ....this man...he had captured his woman...unwillingly mostly....him...also granted by the universo...almost as if men...are very loved creations of nature....not just quite as a woman....huh

The woman was practically furios...always...angry with him....and he watched her...held her against her own will.....and kept her his...inside of the tree....this huge tree of two solid branches....enough room for them both to say it that way...at least if she made....a little hut inisde her own trunk....branch side....and made herself tiny tiny little...as a pixe....
She could have a nice red couch inside...and a nice sweet bed....... but...at the moment she was just angry...to angry to use her imagination in the manner she knew she could soo well...for her own good...and the good of others....

but she didnt seem to want that...soo ...instead...she did as alice in wonderland...
She simply jumped under the tree....let her soul fly into the undergrounds....and place he did not want to goo....an anyway...even the undegrounds loved Alice.....
And they kept her there....sleeping...dreaming ...dancing...playing....with the fays...with the gnomes...with the flowers of nature...and the roses who taught her how to be a rose...they taught her ...they taught her....it was hard to teach Alice...but...yes...she was a rose...in the end....but..a rose..could not grow out of this tree.....that tree up there....

Sooo....she....found her own tree...in the darkness...of the night....of the underworlds....a tree.... secret tree...that grew roses.....with butterflies....dancing around it.....

they say butterflies only dance and fly in daylight...
But...here..butterflies...where happy in their darkness.....and always....loving and protecting huge rosed tree....cause Alice.....she loved this tree....and bloomed it ..with flowers...all the flowers had her in them......

The tree man..could never find Alice....
But the mad hatter confused lots....soo he went alont the way...

In the end...he thought she was the bunny....

And left her...to her beautyful sleep...her dream...a dream..he truly could never enter....

Hay...maybe even the queen of hearts...protected Alice..... from a terrifrying grip....a murder...out to kill her...kill her...destroy her...destroy her life...just cause she is a magical child......


Alice in wonderland.....full movie...

When angels love

(reffering espescially to male angels....)

When an angel loves....
Angels are to be seen as creatures that love and can practically not stop lovin....and endures everything for love....has no limits to their love...when it comes to their love...has no limits when it comes to love.....
An angel is love in itself in many many ways...

But this is only one side to the angels nature....

Yes, i have experienced a good hearted angels temper....it ould blow the roofs off....

The angel helped me thru a very deep and heavy winter depression....Suicidal i was....

Maybe nobody else then this spesific angel could had brought me thruu that gloomy winter...

But my writings today are not of that gloomy winter.......but rather about ....how angels love....

Angels do love immensely...espescially when they do love.....and they would protect those they love with their lifes......

Angels are very beautyful beings and have inner and outer attributes that compliments them....

The universo serves the angels .....always almost....

They are granted with gifts always blessed.....seldom one can see a fallen angel....
seldom....

And yes...the universe has given mercy to this humanity....and earth will be lushed upon with angels falling down from the heavens down to this earth...to help and shed their light upon us.....

It is raining men sweeties.....soo look up as you walk...dont look down...

I myself do never wish my angel to be a fallen one......i wish him to live and to prosper in his life........

But...alike his alien nation...he loves very deeply when he loves.....maybe he thinks love does not come again...but...sweetest white feathered angel....love always comes again....in this planet.....this is the party planet......anything can happen at a party...aight....

And angels are begifted....very begifted....Soo...in the end...angels will always be taken good care...of....

I saw this angel above me ....watching over me........as i sleept.....caring for me...lushing me with gifts.....

I wonder if his love was true sometimes....but...the thing is ..perfecto men ...scare the living hell out of me...but i understand for some women...this is the dream man....


The.....they do have a Fritzel alike energy....

But yes....love exists..some days i truly felt very very utterly spoiled....like golden coins falling out of my wallet........

But...angels are in many ways like birds....they like things that shine....
and well..they truly love...and they love....

But what if they fall inlove and what when and angel gets a no....

How can a utterly granted child of the universo .....accept a no.....espescially of a lower human...

I am certain it must be hard...espescially for a male angel....

Because one thing male angels inside the light of god and the universo...one thing...they all have in common......

that is a tremendous sence of pride....Great pride....they could do a parade of angelical pride....

Oh...they know what they are...their qualities and what they could offer in a matter of love relationships...

How can a cave woman resist such....?
that would be beyond them....

The cave neanthertalic woman might say something alike..... - the thing is ...i like bad boys....yes..those with dark wings...black...mhm

The nice angelical being would then dress in dark wings....just because he can...he is a shapechanger among many things....

She could just aswell had said...i like men in totos...and he would put a nice pink toto on.....

Changes nothing truly....
Cave woman wants what cave woman wants...

Maybe she is just hungry for a different form of flesh....bad truly sinful...dark winged something....
something she even does not have a name for.....

And anybody would think her dumb.....cause other women fall into the angels lap....as dead flyes...

She simply is not alike them .......
She is diferent.....

-No pertenese a ti ni a nadien....-