lørdag 10. desember 2016

Poem about medicine....

Earth is our univers,
Samanta, pronounced samanda sanskrit.

Our body breathe the air in this universe,
the air makes the blood run through our vains.

This becomes our life,
I breathe therefor I am.

One univers merges into another,
they become syncron

The ground we walk on feels our feet,
 we wonder is the world round or is it flat

The ground is our mother,
the moon our grandmother

When we feel ill, our joints might ache, maybe a fever comes,
our mother is not a mistake

She gives birth to our nurture, yes those fruits she carries,
yes those savoury berries

Heals our insides, so walk very wary,
cause we need her also for our minds to us carrie.

You might call it superstition , but then you are blurring my great vision.
Of us planting trees in a garden full of bees.

There we can live in peace,
cause nature gave us the foundation so we could be at ease.

Daughter laying in a hospital bed, not eating, vomiting, praying for better tommorows....
those free of all such sorrows.

Mother feeding her with home made remedies,
 things from the garden of earth.

Even smothies and other lodis.

Slowly she starts to feel more at ease,
vitamins , minerals, naturals giving her body peace.

Cancer they said,
cured by a mothers remembrances of her ancestors mancer.

Elements living around us, to guide us into samandas.

Samandas of life, so that vi can prosper.without a surgical knife.

onsdag 7. desember 2016

Mine tanker....til Nora

Kjære Nora mi. Jeg mammaen din har ingen reell utdannelse...ikke fordi jeg er imot skolen. Men fordi jeg ikke hadde kapasitet til å gå mere skole. Ikke hjernekapasitet el. og ikke energi og psykisk kapasitet.
Jeg ønsker selv at du skal gå masse masse skole og høyere utdannelse...det er fint og vakkert ,vakker egenskap i ett menneske,d å ønske å lære.
Også kan man ha så mye mere frihet i livet.
Men det er og like viktig å ta vare på sin egen helse.


Jeg selv forsøkte stadig å gjøre meg ferdig med videregående, jeg brukte 10 år på dette...men jeg fikk det ikke til....
Dette gav meg frustrasjon. 

Så ille at jeg til og med drømte om nettene at jeg gikk skole og i drømmene studerte jeg lykkelig i en slags skole Oase...Og var en fri student som kunne studere alle slags termer med den glatteste enkelhet.....matematikk,kjemi,psykolog, anatomi...kunst, dans og musikk.
Jeg studerte ikke alt på en gang da...

Men studerte forskellige ting i hver drømmeliv og drømme fase. Ett år om matematikk....ett annet år dans,ett annet år anatomi. etc. etc

Det var veldig underlige drømmer...men d var fint....
Mine drømmer ble ikke virkelige...
Men jeg håper inderlig at dine blir...
Elsker deg min engel....


søndag 4. desember 2016

Just breath

About a war with the wall

the war hit the wall
there is no more wall
cause the wall is silent

Maybe the storm will come soon
I hear it outside
my war started the storm

There is no more to do, then to just breath

Be content....

there is no more to do....

The world will either crash or it will heal....

All I can do is breath....

Every war needs a breathing break, every soldiers need his rest

Mine will be a pretty long one....

Cause I have been fighting

My agression is become flat

Maybe the fight made me evolve....

When will the world understand

Children are the future

No child is evil

Only confused if anything....

If I was a queen I would to many times say off with their heads..

I would surely be the worst red queen....ever

Cause injustice awakens a monster in me

A monster I can not control

At least I did not control it

Not in this little fight, this little war

There are others alike me.....with hopes and dreams soo high that they come crashing down right on our heads...

Hopes for the world, hopes for the future.....but in the end....after an outbourst...after the biggest outbourst ever....I understand...one can not fight dragons with swords..

And in the midst of it all...I feel love.....

Soo much love...

Cause I love him....

The one that gave me the greatest gift....



onsdag 30. november 2016

The Idealist and the Puritan.....




Yes, I look terrible, I took a few hard kicks , cause it was a war

you where a sleep.....
I am happy you are awaken
I never noticed that beauty in your eyes.


But now we can sit here.....cause the world was in a trap....It was a big battle ......

Along the way we fell then we got up, then we fell again.  Cause the road is pretty rocky. Though we are just about almost there.

Yes there. That place where we all are brothers and sisters.

But I see you do not wish to shake my hands, cause my hands are filled with mud. 

But one day my hands will be clean




torsdag 24. november 2016

The human biologi...

Emma - I just read an article, about sex, the sexolog compared human sexuality with....chimpanzees....

Carolyn - of course. Not the first time I hear this comparision....

Emma - and will not be the last either.

Carolyn - You think....?

Emma - hmm....that is normal thinking nowadays...are you not updated ? 

Carolyn- Hehe.....surely...trying my best.


Emma - But my thoughts are....if frequent sexuality with different partners ,  just alike chimpanzees do in the animal channel, if this is our natural ways,........then why , why are there then soo many many sexual transmitted diseases?

I mean, why is the growth of sexual transmitted illnesses growing in a pace soo fast doctors do not have medication? And some old sexual transmitted illnesses are becoming resistent to treatment. 
Why, if this is our natural way of living ?

Why? if this is the way nature intended us to live....and thrive....for this instant pleasures....sexuality...


Carolyn - Some people are soo inded sexually oriented that they do not even glance at non attractiv people...as if they are a none human species...or a lower type of cast...
Everytime I take the bus I get radically hostile looks from one or more persons.......cause of my weight problem....


Emma - yes but, this is the mentality of a great part of the humanity we have on this planet today.

Carolyn - Don`t say that....it can`t be that extreme.

Emma- But you told it yourself....people almost bully you directly...not with words, but with looks and mimmicks.

Carolyn- Mhm....that means old people, fat people , people on wheelchairs, and people with progeria or other illness that will influence the apperance,....

is it really this severe ? Carolyn questions...

Emma- They are aknowledged as almost none human by many many people?

Carolyn - But why....stop saying those things...you will make me depressed.

Emma - I am not the one doing this to you.....

Carolyn - But you are......

Emma - People do this,  cause they think some people arent pretty enough or within their personal sexual orientation!

Carolyn - But, well....I belive that we are far much...and even further then that far much...evolved

Emma- One thing we are, and that is ...more evolved then chimpanzees or other mammals.
No mather how intelligent those mammals may appear.....
We are not them....
we are more evolved then them....


Carolyn - Reminds me...of a song that was popular in the nighties....do it like they do in the discovery channel or something.....

Emma - Yes, but that song was supposed to be funny....

Carolyn - Yea...

Emma - and people took it completely literally...it seems.

Carolyn Giggles....

Emma shrugs...

Carolyn- I agree... I do....I really do...come on!

Emma - we can simply just not compare ourself with them in the manners that we do......espescially when it comes to sex.
Our primary needs might seem similar....we need food, rest and movement just as them. But we are not them....


Carolyn - hehe.....no...I guess we aren`t.

Emma - My idea is that there is absolutely possible to love another person passionately, with feelings of infatuation...and romance that could last for a lifetime

Carolyn - Without ever touching that person in a sexual manner?
Now here is the sex nazi....

Emma - yes! So people are to stop having sex....! 

Carolyn - sighs....

...Emma grins......
-I do not mean that one should not have sex in a partner relationship.....
I just mean...that sexuality is not the BASE for a good relationship...for love to grow romantically between two.

Carolyn - Sex is a bonus in a partner relationship.

Emma - Exactly...a bonus. Not a necessity. Like glowing Magazines of today want it to appear.

She puts two newspapers on the table...

- Look at this....

Newspaper 1. You should have sex in a minimum of 2 times a week, else it is a sign your relationship has come to an end!

Newspaper 2 You must take care of your sexual needs else you will get all these illnesses listed below.
- Anemia
- Digestive problems
- Anxiety
- Anger fits
- Obesity....surely you are not having enough sex. 
-Anorexia
- Cleptomania
- Depression



Emma becomes silent and goes into thought....her memories go awhile back....and she starts to recall from her memories....

I have seen nuns live long and happy and fulfilled lifes. Without ever having sex. Nor having the need for it. They fill their lifes with many things, many good things, friends, family, efforts and tasks.
They live rich lives........soo rich that I often have glanced upon them and felt a little envy.....


Emma - I wanted to become a nun at one time in my life you know.....she exclaims.

Carolyn - You did...for real ? Ah...therefor the resentment about sex.....
to not say that kinda churchy attitude at times.......

Emma - Me churchy attitude ? Come on....You know I need church to keep myself on track with the lord.....

Carolyn - Soo the world will not swallow you up into its sin....you puritan.....

Emma- I am not puritan Carolyn....truly...that I am not....

Carolyn - Know lets open it up for discussion.

Emma - What ? 

Carolyn - Just kidding....

Emma - No, tell me....

Carolyn - Yea...I well.....but just that I noticed just recently that thing about you, wearing those skirts....

Emma - Well it says in the bible....a lady should dress properly using skirts or dress from the waist to below the knees.

Carolyn - Come on, I wear pants as I like and if I like, and how I like it.

Emma - Certainly....and I wear skirts!

Carolyn - But back to our subject....you where going to become a nun? where and when ?

Emma - oh ...just somewhere, hardly anyone knows, at a place nobody knows about....

Carolyn -ok...I see...but then what happened?

Emma - I decided to choose a family life before a nuns life....and the monk there told me it was just as a precious path....but he insisted that only with the right person....not just anyone that presented themselfs to me.....
I had to promise him that before leaving......

Cause you know....nuns and also have deep respect for family life. Family is also a sacrament of god. 
But their wide and open eyes glance thru the highly sexualized society, And they simply choose not to take part.

Well my impression is that society does not respect family life! 

Carolyn - Maybe at some time in history, society did such a thing. 

Emma - But not today, Not for a wink of an eye.

But you know what ? what is more disgraceful is people walking the whole road thru life still confused, not really knowing what love truly is. Seeking love in absurd places and in absurd ways....

Carolyn - hehe...fifthy shades....

Emma - Love is a longlasting connection and affection for someone. Love never dies. 

Carolyn - I guess.....love is....love is like....
Love is like two souls connecting. Two against the world!


Emma - Romantic love is kissing and knowing that this kiss is something very special.....you can tell soo much by just a single kiss.

Carolyn- Yes, but you can get sexual transmitted illness by a single kiss to.....




Emma - It is almost as if evil lurks around everything pure and then dillutes it.....


Well, there is nothing pure about kissing tons of people . Then you will get something, that is certain.



Carolyn - A person can not just kiss a frog and expect him to become a prince....it just does not happen no mather how much you might kiss the frog....


Emma - might be.....

Carolyn -Love does not exist anymore! Simple as that...

Emma-  It does exist...it surely does...love is everywhere... but somehow everything espescially having to do with romantic love is sort of .....confusing humanity. 


Carolyn - I could not agree more....

Emma - This world makes absurdity , vulgarity and pervesity into romantic love.


Carolyn - Yes. 

Emma - Romantic love is much closer to simple affection, then it is to sexuality.......

Emma is thinking..... When I was a young girl....i remembered I heard story`s of people waiting years and years sometimes almost decades for their special one to come around and give them as much as a kiss...and in the end marry with them. That truly is love.....

Does this type of expression of love even exist anymore....I doubt that.....


Emma - Wait...I will show you a list I just made....searching in a big brown fake leather purse, takes up a striped notebook.

here it is, look...now tell me what you think.

Love is not sodomi
Love is not a fight of who is the stronger in the relationship.
Love is dreaming together, sharing deeper thoughts, 
Love is a smile that melts in your chest...
Love is a smile you remember all thru the day....
Love is unity
Love is a loving voice speaking towards you filled with good intentions
Love is a million things, affection, care, responsability, gentleness, music, art, a conversation, walking together, sitting together looking at the stars, infatuation and romance, having children, loving a child, love is sharing your dreams, begifting, love is trusting, love is truth, love is a little gentle lie to keep the peace(yes, your cooking was great sweety), love is listening eagerly, love is learning, love is humble, love is protection, 
Love is a million things....

Carolyn - hehe....I thought it was fabulous, Could not had written it better myself.....

Emma - Soo then....i conclude...that Human love is not chimpanzee love!
Chimpanzee love is rape compared to human love!


Carolyn - It reminds me of a quote I read somewhere....now how was it....?
let me think........thinking ....
ah...now I got it....

"
Everyone is a know it all today. But in the end, nobody knows anything, cause beyond anything love is a mystery. "


Emma - wow.....yes.....I love that.
I also have a quote I found somewhere, got it in here somewhere....flipping pages thru her notebook..

"Love comes from a bright source that is brighter then the sun, 

Soo I conclude love .....love ....it has nothing, nothing to do with sexuality at all....never has and never will...."

Carolyn - Now that I call Radical...!





fredag 21. oktober 2016

The path

The path is green with autumn leaves falling more and more
The path was dark...but now there is this light...this light
I prayed, I have prayed and prayed...and therefor the light

He knows nothing
Of the darkness
He says he had a tough ride
But still, he knows nothing of my darkness

The abyss that was lurking
Lurking around me, trying to swallow me
But he saved me, the only one, the only that saves
Still he knows nothing, he does not understand , not the darkness nor that light that saves
How random his mind is.

Like calculating, he is reasonable. That is nice.
Though he still can not understand , not those things of the soul.
Like he has none
He lives in a carnal universe, the world of the flesh

The world of the flesh scares me.
I find no reason there, it does not make sence
Though that darkness, the one trying to swallow me, it serves the world of the flesh
Maybe that is why that world scares me

But mediocracy, mediocracy belong also to that world
Where humans forget the soul, forget to ask questions.
Who am I? where do we come from?
They serve the lord of mediocre , he is darkness in the end

I have been there.




Finding peace with the truth....

The truth about what
The truth about being alone
The truth about my choice
I dreamed of a life as a nun....
That dream might come true....just with a diffrent expression

He will never come back
That is a truth
I lost him along time ago
Why is not important

I need to proceed, with missions in life
I am awakening, awakening into myself....
Like maturing, with wisdom and spiritual path
Like I always am, just this time in a different expression


mandag 17. oktober 2016

The love that was blind, but not blind like others...

She met him, she loved him
No he saw her, he fell into her spell
No, no...but deeply into her eyes
No, cause blind was loves disguise

Years passed, in his life many women embrace
his beautiful gaze.

For her, she was just lost, in cruel spells by sons
of darkness
Until her prince came, and liberated from that heartless,

 away from that empthy dark void,
where sexuality was king of all.
He showed her love, without a call.

You might say it does not ryhme
but it is that old darkness talking you in hymns
Cause it is the soul of the poem that is the meaning
itself.
Actually ryhme is just a bonus shelf

And a true story made to poetry , is more than any trending bigotry


Well , then , saved by the prince, they happily would be.
Not yet, said the devil
Cause her corpse, body and soul, he would not let go to rebel


Her love stuck by her side, many blessings they had in sight.
But demons where strong in their grip
Destroyed them almost both....
Only apart they could into life dip.


And the blindness has come back
oh, That foggy attack
She can not see, at times...
Not that true love that went soo weak...
She waits for him to show he is meak,
meak to her companionship,
Maybe he could turn into courteship,
drinking of that cup of eternal love
watched by angels praying with the white dove

Angels help them return to that love..
So alike what they experience above.
Angels say this union will make spring blossom
in heaven and earths great bussum