the destruction

Inside me he whispers.....
back and forth...
rejection and love

but i recall soo his words of rejection
soo i try and move on
but as i do
the king comes back in fury

tells me i will be destroyed...
my body in waters it muries....
buried to the tests of my bad
karma to sore in

What shall i do to please the king
I dont want you he will scream....
I want you gone....
I want someone my own status, race and economy

I try again and walk away....
But again my body in waters it muries...
while my mothers in tears she carries....
cause she know nothings.....

But my bad deeds she lays in.....
cause i did not know what the King wanted....

And i still do not know.....
But i pay for his fury.....
and carry will i his punches of duty.....

You will end up alone he screams...
I shutter cause lonelyness was always my
biggest fear.....in it i talk with world that nobody
then me hears....my illness....

I didnt want to end up alone
i have soo much love to give....
and inside me it will all rot.....

but...maybe this is his wishes for me.....
i guess....i guess....
watered in my body.....destructed...inside and outside...

just give mercy to those i love.....high King your majesty....